I am ME when I go to work. Otherwise, around family and other JWs, I'm 60% genuine. It needs to be so in order to keep peace and keep the family/friends dynamic going. You see, my close circle of family and friends are heavy into WTBTS stuff and I cannot afford financially, emotionally to be put out of the group. Sad, but true.
So many of us inside in my safe boat. However, having been my whole life JW-indoctrinated, I don't think I can exit and then go on to line up with today's opinions that "anything goes" and "as long as you're not hurting anyone else..."
Just can't. So, I've accepted this situation and have resolved to continue it for the duration. It's sooo complicated!
DY